I wish I had written the songs I grew up with
I wish all those stories were about me
I wish that I had wings that would sprout if I stepped out my window
I wish I was the wind, climbing, soaring without boundaries
I wish I could feel for a second what it is not to exist
I wish I could feel what you feel for a day
I wish I was here, and nowhere and everywhere
I wish there was place where my heart could just stay
I wish there was color I had never seen before
I wish not just to “Be” but to be alive in every way
I wish I could fight becoming one with the crowd
I wish there was a dog star to find my way
I wish I could remember feeling what I had felt before
I wish I could keep this numbness at bay
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Hope - Anathema
I was not put here by anyone in fear
I came alone as me
Just an idea in a long chain of discovery
Surrounded by the same you
Sometimes your tide pulls me out to sea
And I die in a thrashing curse
Sometimes we are kind
More often, I doze
So far up the beach that those who try to reach are burnt alive in the searing
heat of the desert of my dispassion
So far removed, I never hear the water
'Cept once or twice a month when I see a mirror
And I refuse to believe in some of the things that are said to be here
Let alone those that are not
I'm trying to change my direction
Ours is pathetic in my own humble estimation
I love the planet
The great benign she-wolf
Benefactor
Spinning gently on towards the red giant four aeons hence
When all the rose gardens are consumed in the flash-fire of flying time
She'll leave alone to you
Anathema
I came alone as me
Just an idea in a long chain of discovery
Surrounded by the same you
Sometimes your tide pulls me out to sea
And I die in a thrashing curse
Sometimes we are kind
More often, I doze
So far up the beach that those who try to reach are burnt alive in the searing
heat of the desert of my dispassion
So far removed, I never hear the water
'Cept once or twice a month when I see a mirror
And I refuse to believe in some of the things that are said to be here
Let alone those that are not
I'm trying to change my direction
Ours is pathetic in my own humble estimation
I love the planet
The great benign she-wolf
Benefactor
Spinning gently on towards the red giant four aeons hence
When all the rose gardens are consumed in the flash-fire of flying time
She'll leave alone to you
Anathema
Montjuic
If I start putting up a post for every time I feel nostalgia, or feel dejavu, or i feel I've been sucked into a memory world without the least of provocation this would be a much more active blog. However this morning the nostalgia is of chronic nature, its hardcore and I must do something about it. I would have saved the trouble of posting now if i had actually blogged about wondering about Europe... well when i was wondering about Europe, but never mind, this morning it was being sucked into one sunset at Montjuic. One might ask what the hell Montjuic is, one might suggest that perhaps it is a mountain, and indeed it is, well close enough, its a hill, alright enough of weird talk (maybe). It is a hill, literally meaning hill of Jews or Jupiter, whoever said the name the first time must have been mumbling because they aren't sure whether its one way or the other. It is located in Barcelona. So what is so special about this one mountain? maybe nothing let me rattle however.
Its been the site for world fairs, formula 1 races (alas way before my time), strategic point for bombing the city when people were not behaving as they were expected to, mass murder via killing squads, military prison, political prison, the olympics, and also strangely enough for a complicated experiment which measured the distance from North Pole to the Equator.
So why nostalgia for this such a mishmash of history, I guess I have to thank luck for that. As "luck" would have it, the time I reached Montjuic was that of late afternoon in fact an hour away from sunset. I could see the whole of Barcelona spread out before me from my vantage point, the light falling on it was perfect shade of fire, golden, alive, intoxicating. It was one of those moments when you disconnect from the real world, I had, i was in a dream. From the Teleferic i made my way towards the top.
At the top, befitting the dreamlike quality of this whole episode is a Castle, a medieval fortification residing in a space shaped like a starred pentagon, surrounded by enormous moats complete with bastions and buttresses. Though by now the light is waning the place had not been lit up by flood lights and much to my relief. The only place I would have wanted to be in here was the top of the castle, and to the top I went, chose a spot facing the setting sun, and I watched it drown into the Mediterranean, and the sky dance with hues of sunset and then night. Thankfully floodlights still had not been stirred. and you could see the first stars, the harbor, the ships, the lights of Barcelona glittering like rubies, and sapphires and citrine diamonds, the moon shined ever brighter for the contrast I had witnessed, I could see it shining on top of the Keep. As the last traces of sun went away, and the floodlights were switched on it was time to go, I took it all in and left.
Okay the last two paragraphs were rather "heavy" in nature, but then again so is my nostalgia, I would not mind one such sunset again., and what made it special was the fact that I was completely at peace, no conflict, no struggle, no distraction, just peace. Okay maybe there might have been minor distractions like people in the way of a photo I wanted to take but nothing major.
Maybe if I find my way there again, it wouldn't be the same, maybe it was just a special one-time spell, but I think I'm going to try and find my way there again anyways.
Its been the site for world fairs, formula 1 races (alas way before my time), strategic point for bombing the city when people were not behaving as they were expected to, mass murder via killing squads, military prison, political prison, the olympics, and also strangely enough for a complicated experiment which measured the distance from North Pole to the Equator.
So why nostalgia for this such a mishmash of history, I guess I have to thank luck for that. As "luck" would have it, the time I reached Montjuic was that of late afternoon in fact an hour away from sunset. I could see the whole of Barcelona spread out before me from my vantage point, the light falling on it was perfect shade of fire, golden, alive, intoxicating. It was one of those moments when you disconnect from the real world, I had, i was in a dream. From the Teleferic i made my way towards the top.
At the top, befitting the dreamlike quality of this whole episode is a Castle, a medieval fortification residing in a space shaped like a starred pentagon, surrounded by enormous moats complete with bastions and buttresses. Though by now the light is waning the place had not been lit up by flood lights and much to my relief. The only place I would have wanted to be in here was the top of the castle, and to the top I went, chose a spot facing the setting sun, and I watched it drown into the Mediterranean, and the sky dance with hues of sunset and then night. Thankfully floodlights still had not been stirred. and you could see the first stars, the harbor, the ships, the lights of Barcelona glittering like rubies, and sapphires and citrine diamonds, the moon shined ever brighter for the contrast I had witnessed, I could see it shining on top of the Keep. As the last traces of sun went away, and the floodlights were switched on it was time to go, I took it all in and left.
Okay the last two paragraphs were rather "heavy" in nature, but then again so is my nostalgia, I would not mind one such sunset again., and what made it special was the fact that I was completely at peace, no conflict, no struggle, no distraction, just peace. Okay maybe there might have been minor distractions like people in the way of a photo I wanted to take but nothing major.
Maybe if I find my way there again, it wouldn't be the same, maybe it was just a special one-time spell, but I think I'm going to try and find my way there again anyways.
Man without a face
We take a lot for granted don't we? we never really care to count what we've got , i suppose the reasoning behind it goes something like this "Everyone's got it, so its no biggie", till its taken away from us. Was going through the news paper just now and came across this article about a man who had lost his face (literally ) made contact with a high voltage wire, he lost his face I mean he has no features at all, no eyes, no nose, But yesterday the results of his full transplant were revealed, the full story of his accident and plight here. Now he has a face back and hopefully would get semblance to a normal life back too. The full story as per yesterday here. I hope I remember to appreciate everything i do have, the whining for the rest can wait.
Man without a face
We take a lot for granted don't we? we never really care to count what we've got , i suppose the reasoning behind it goes something like this "Everyone's got it, so its no biggie", till its taken away from us. Was going through the news paper just now and came across this article about a man who had lost his face (literally ) made contact with a high voltage wire, he lost his face I mean he has no features at all, no eyes, no nose, But yesterday the results of his full transplant were revealed, the full story of his accident and plight here. Now he has a face back and hopefully would get semblance to a normal life back too. The full story as per yesterday here. I hope I remember to appreciate everything i do have, the whining for the rest can wait.
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